The Journey Day 3

10/26/17

They say that your taste buds start to change and I'm definitely experiencing that right now. The food is starting to taste good, haha. Shannon asked me tonight if I'm struggling with wanting food and I can honestly say I'm not. I get more excited thinking about the lean and green meal I can eat and how good it will taste. I also started looking on Pinterest for lean and green meal recipes and that got me really excited. I did get a sight headache today, but I'm not sure if it was because of the meal plan or due to the pill. Regardless, I tried propel for the first time and it really helped.

Tonight we ate lettuce chicken wraps and it was super good. I am so proud of the girls eating with us without complaint and just enjoying the experience as well. I am also noticing some differences in my skin. I typically have very oily skin, especially my face. I use a charcoal face wash every day and oil free moisturizer to keep the zits and blemishes at bay. I noticed today that my skin was not oily. I thought it may be due to the water intake. I have never drunk so much water consistently ever so my body is probably in shock with all of the hydration. Shannon also said that the minerals in the food will help with skin, hair, and nails. That's a definite side bonus!

I weighed myself this morning. At first I didn't think I would weigh every day just in case it didn't move in the direction I hoped, but after seeing the drop in 7 lbs yesterday I thought it would be good to just check. So I weighed in at 357.4...another 4 lbs down for a total of 11 lbs. I am super excited about that.

I'm finding that I am letting go of a lot of fears and old beliefs I had about myself. I have always hated scales. I can count on one hand how many times I've weighed myself in my life. I feel like that is changing a bit as I see the number declining each day. I used to believe it defined who I was as a far person, but now it is adding definition to my success story. It is empowering to feel this way and let go of the old out of site, out of mind mentality in terms of knowing how much I weigh.

I used to not eat breakfast in the mornings...like, at all. I was never hungry in the morning and I would often times go all day without eating if I was busy at work or didn't have time. I would then come home and eat everything in sight because I was starving. This program is helping me to think differently about food and the word "fuel" for the body. Now that I have to get up and eat right away, I am seeing the difference it makes in my morning and my whole day. I have started to keep a fuel bar next to my bed so that I can wake up, read my scriptures, say a prayer, stretch, and eat my fuel bar within 30 minutes of waking up. I am really liking this new routine and I am seeing the difference it is making.

I love the holistic approach of this program as well...balancing physical, mental, financial health, for an overall optimal way of living. I would add spiritual to that balance. I am reading my scriptures daily now which I never had time to do before and being more prayerful which has really helped me to be successful up to this point.

I have loved doing this with my sweetheart. He has been a strength to me since day 1 and to be on the same journey (different program) is really empowering as a couple. We've been married for 13 years this year and we've always struggled with fertility. I can't help but think that my weight has been a huge contributing factor. I often feel guilt because of the fear I have always had in addressing my weight. I often think of how things could have been different if I had been more healthy. While I've always pushed the thoughts and feelings to the back of my mind and hidden in them in a dark corner of my soul, I am finding that my thought processes are starting to change. I'm more grateful now for the children we do have and for the blessing we have received. I am truly grateful for this renewal of both body and spirit that I am blessed to experience. It has only been 3 to 4 days, but it feels longer than that. I am excited to see where it goes from here.